How a mid-life crisis helped me find my moxie!

I’ll let you into a secret…

I thought it was my unhappy relationship. Well, it was but it wasn’t!

I thought it was my stale job and career. Ditto ditto!

I thought it was my time of life. Double ditto ditto!

I was in my early forties, married, children, feeling restless and unsettled…

On my wedding day I’d heard a humungous NOOOOOOOOO inside but took no notice. (There’s a clue in that!) Some 16 years’ later with more downs than ups, our values were polar opposites and the relationship was nowhere near enough for me.

Plus I was a ‘jobbing’ psychotherapist, working with a whole range of issues. Not that I didn’t love what I did when I was working with the magnificence of the person before me. But, when the door closed, there it was again, that restless unsettled feeling. Something missing but I didn’t know what.

Add to that the freakin’ perimenopause striking when I was 39. By my early forties I’d had enough of bleeding like a stuffed pig, my cycles getting shorter and shorter and the sweats coming out of nowhere. No wonder I felt restless, unsettled and there must be more to life than this… but what?

Put them all together and it makes sense of why I was feeling restless unsettled, doesn’t it?

Yes and no!

Early one morning when I couldn’t sleep I came downstairs for a drink. The mid-summer sun flooded my kitchen as I opened the door and I heard in my head, loud and strong, ‘I’ve been fighting for you!’

I dropped to my knees, a raw sound in my throat, and kneeled there for who knows how long just sobbing, sobbing, sobbing.

It felt like I’d finally come home!

If I’d listened to that NO, if I’d sat with my restless unsettled feelings instead of trying to push them away I would have got they were a message from my Wild Soul to explore and grow into what was ‘missing’ and the ‘more’ lying dormant in me.

My relationship, job and career and perimenopause were causing dis-ease BUT beneath and far more crucial was separation from my essential being, my Wild Soul, my inner wisdom fail proof guidance system that knows exactly what I’ve come here to be and do.

Once I sussed that I knew exactly what to do about my relationship, job and career AND the perimenopause…

And that’s how my mid-life crisis helped me find my moxie!

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Love and wild warm wishes…